Observation Video Blog

In one moment your whole world stops. Everything that mattered a second ago, you forget. Your stomach drops to the ground, your throat tightens up, and the tears start to flow. You have thousands of questions banging between the lobes of your brain. Your temples start pounding, and you being to feel angry. Why would this happen? It's someones fault. You lash out at the first person you see, and blame them. You scream, you hit, your emotions are raging, building up inside of you, until suddenly, its over. All you feel is the tears soaking your skin, and your body just shakes.
You try to go back to your normal routine. You walk into class with your head down, but the stares from everywhere burn into your body, almost reaching and tearing your soul. You look around, and you realize what is missing. They're not there, and the room feels empty. And then it starts all over. The tears flow like a river into an ocean, the anger boils up, and you have to just leave.
You sit alone in your room, with nothing but the sounds of your own sobs and teardrops hitting your clothes. You have to be with them, you have to go there, because you think you can reverse it. You run, screaming, crying, wishing you could stop them from ever leaving that day. Your legs burn as you run down the battered and cracked asphalt of the local highway, not stopping until you reach the spot. You collapse, every muscle, organ, just fall to the ground. The cross stares you in the face, taunting you until you realize why its there. You close your heavy eyelids and picture that old truck, rolling, the shattering sound of glass, and your body flailing from door to door until it stops. You feel your body tighten as you look up into a gloomy gray sky of clouds. As you feel the wind go through your hair and your body shivers, you realize that it will never be the same, and your life, your future, will never be what you expected. What hurts the most, is not being able to see that person again.


The content and meaning of the video is a story about a girl who loses her boyfriend in a car crash. We see her anger and sadness throughout the video and at one point we get a glimpse into how she and her boyfriend acted together. My observation wasn't on the song or the lyrics, but on the clips of the girl and her struggle through her loss. Losing someone has so many emotions, and they start off powerful and uncontrollable. You find yourself either lashing out, or crying for hours. They continuously build up until that one moment when you realize they are gone, and you never got to say what you wanted to. And that is what happens with this story. While I wrote my observation, I made sure to keep in mind that I was building up to that reality moment, and making sure the reader felt the pain that the girl was feeling.